A YA debut about a teen girl who wrestles with rumors, reputation, and her relationships with two brothers.
Seventeen-year-old Raychel is sleeping with two boys: her overachieving best friend Matt…and his slacker brother, Andrew. Raychel sneaks into Matt’s bed after nightmares, but nothing ever happens. He doesn’t even seem to realize she’s a girl, except when he decides she needs rescuing. But Raychel doesn't want to be his girl anyway. She just needs his support as she deals with the classmate who assaulted her, the constant threat of her family’s eviction, and the dream of college slipping quickly out of reach. Matt tries to help, but he doesn’t really get it… and he’d never understand why she’s fallen into a secret relationship with his brother. The friendships are a precarious balance, and when tragedy strikes, everything falls apart. Raychel has to decide which pieces she can pick up – and which ones are worth putting back together.
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Raychel has a lot going on in her life - she has a promiscuous reputation around school, she and her mom struggle financially, and she is sort of part of her best friend Matt's family. Unbeknownst to Raychel, though how I'm unsure since it's obvious to everyone else, Matt is in love with her. The alternating chapters set a nice pace and allow you to experience the emotions and events from both teen perspectives.
The mess of Raychel's life is built up throughout Part I so much that I wondered where the story was going. The backstory, however, is necessary to emphasize the sheer loss experienced during Part II. I wasn't sure what the title meant and was anxious to uncover the mystery, as I imagined several possibilities. Wham! The end of Part I leaves no questions!
Readers will appreciate the honest portrayal of small, college town teens and the desire to fit in - with friends and family. Feeling left behind with friends off in college, animosity between parent and child, sexual assault, sibling rivalry, poverty, and grief are all topics covered.
Ultimately, Raychel learns that secrets don't help your situation, and facing one's fears (even if it is a daily struggle) is the way to move forward.